Today I feel so sad, so disheartened. After another weekend of senseless loss and tragedy, I feel like the box to Pandora’s hell has been ripped apart. I feel the fragility of humanity weighing me down. The News gives me anxiety, the future scares me shitless. I have kids and I wonder about the world they’ll be inheriting. What will happen when I’m not there to shield them from the sorrow that seems so prevalent these days. No matter how careful I am to protect myself from negative energy, it’s just always there. My heart is breaking. Yesterday I spent the day crying. Thinking about the incredible loss of what seems to be everything- and I just couldn’t stop. Maybe I’m naïve but it’s so plain to me. It’s all about love guys. That’s why we’re here: to love each other. To accept, acknowledge, appreciate, support and LOVE each other.
What in the heck is happening out there that we’re making it so damn complicated? I’m sick of worrying about hate, injustice and grief. Humanity is so beautiful with it’s endless rainbow of colours, voices, ideas and possibility. What greater gift could you ever need? Life, nature, opportunity. It makes my heart swell when I think of it- but then it shrinks right back down. Afraid of what we can lose (there’s a a lot at stake). Climate change, presidents and dictators, gunman and hatred- it’s got me all tied up in knots. “What can I do?” I ask myself, pulled and tempted down a narcissistic path of pity, fear and paranoia.
It’s not like I don’t know, in a cliche sort of way, that life has it’s share of hardships for everyone. But experiencing them, personally living through and playing witness to them, well that’s when it gets hard. That’s when it gets painful and messy. And yet through pain comes some of our biggest learning and aha moments. Some of our most profound personal growth. Pain is part of beauty- inside all the hurt, love is beauty and pain. It’s so clear, but somehow, along way, the message has gotten muddied.
We have to clean up our acts (literally). We have to do better. Better connecting, encouraging and loving on one another. Beauty and joy are all around- we just have to choose to see it. Be aware of the daily miracles and send that frequency of positivity out to the universe. The good is there. It will always be there, we just have to make sure we never lose sight of it. Tune into the small moments in your life- those are what make up a lifetime. Cherish those little gifts- it’s a present from the universe. Love is everywhere. It’s in my daughter’s laughter when she plays with her daddy, it’s the gleam of mischief in my son’s eyes when he knows he’s taking a risk, but that we will be there to catch him, to love him, no matter what.
Now here’s my plea: We must take this beauty, this fire, this promise of a better day, (a better way) and turn it into an evolution of growth, respect, peace and acceptance. That little light of goodness is burning inside us all. Take that light and beam it out onto the universe, care-bear style. Together, we can make an endless rainbow of magic, light and community shining out for eternity, pushing back the dark, made stronger by love.